Reen Reen & Dan Dan & Wynter's cousins

My beautiful family.

1 more for the girls.

Uncle Woop Woop

This is my amazing brother Willy. Wynter's hero, my guardian angel & camp comedian. More on this guy later.

Music

I called one of our old friends, Bart in Houston to let him know about our need for a drum set for our band. It was great to talk to him, I haven't seen him in years but I've known him since I was 12 and I decided to call his music store and ask for the donation of a guitar for my younger brother, Danny who was turning 10 that week. Bart's reponse was that if I could gather enough knives from our missionary community that he would consider a trade. Thinking back on it now, he may have given me that answer thinking that I would just try around somewhere else but I did gather the knives and got my parents to drive me down there to show Bart what I'd collected for him, ha! He was shocked to see me and looked over the knives, finally choosing one of value, a whaling knife my dad had kept for years. Then after seeing Danny's current guitar that my dad had bought for $8 at a flea market in California when Danny was 8 years old, Bart tells us "That's not a guitar", and then pulling a new one off the shelf, he says "THIS is a guitar!" Such a nice man. Danny got the best birthday gift and I was floored by the miracle. Anyway, ever since then Bart has donated thousands of dollars worth of musical equiptment and instruments and when I mentioned our need for a drumset he quickly asked "How do I get it to you?" Isn't that precious? He didn't think twice or hesitate and when I told him he's one of our angels, he said he will always help "The Family Singers", the name our family singing group has always had. So, Danny, David & Hosy will be bringing home the drum set in a week and we can start practicing hard core! Oh, if you want to see a music video we did for one of my songs at my parents place, check it out here: 12foundationstones.com Click on "Pray For You" on the far right, you'll see a picture of me.

Christian

Talked to Christian tonight on Skype and I just found out that he'll be longer than we'd expected. I was so excited about seeing him in a week and it's hard for me to understand why there have to be so many delays but I refuse to give in to defeat and doubt. God help me believe! I want so much to be one of those women of faith that believes without any thread of evidence, without any rescue call, without a deadline to look forward to. I want to trust just because I love Jesus and I want to give him that compliment, that I know He will work everything out perfectly for me and the precious ones I love. I don't know when I'll see Christian again but I know Jesus knows so I'll stay closer to Him than I ever have before to hear the first breath of news regarding his return. It's been 2 months now that we've been apart so I'm looking forward to Valentine's Day with all my heart. Wynter talks to him on Skype whenever I do and she dances as he sings to her through the huge earphones. "Five green speckled frogs sat on a speckled log eating some most delicious bugs--yum, yum! One jumped into a pool where it was nice and cool, now there's only four green speckled frogs." That's her favorite and when I ask her what she thinks of her Papa she tells me "peckled frogs, Mama!" She's worth it all. When your almost 2 year old wakes up in the morning and the first thing she does is grab your face with both her hands and says "I luf you, Mama"-- that is life. I have so much to be thankful for. Wanna hear the lyrics to the song I wrote to Christian on Christmas Day? It goes like this:

I'll Stay

Holding back tears,
Thinking of years we spent so well together,
Wondering why
At this special time we have to be apart.
He's the One who gave me to you,
I wanna be in your arms,
But He'll hold me as He always has,
My emotions feel disarmed...

Chorus:
But I'll stay
For He is the Way, the Truth & my very life,
If His will is for me to fill my whole heart with Him than I'll try,
To be
His eyes & to see the hurt souls He's pleading for,
"They say distance makes the heart grow fonder",
It's true, I love you more,
I can't wait 'til you walk through that door.

At my weakest, trembling knees test ground they haven't felt,
I have never felt the level of prayer my soul just dealt,
I'm here leaning on Him, weaning myself off of the facts,
Impossible won't be an option, on blind faith I will act.

Repeat Chorus til you have the faith to believe :)

Have a wonderful Thursday, everyone!

Christmas in Guatemala

Okay, this is an example of the happiness I feel in my new country! Christmas was amazing here and I loved every second of it, so wonderful. These pictures are of most of our singing team when we performed for a poor neighborhood where some of our friends were giving away clothing and gifts.

Wynter Jane

You would never know what a proud mother I am by the look of our blog. I post so many pictures of me that you could think I'm a vain, self absorbed person (which I hope I'm not!) So the theme of this post is our darling Wynter Jane. She's been such a good girl lately, giving me so much love and behaving so well with her friends that she deserves a little hall of fame. I was just thanking God this morning for giving us such a precious little girl. She's not a brat and she loves Jesus so much, prayer is a constant in her life and if you heard the way she prays and saw the way she squints her eyes closed, clasps her chubbly little hands together and gives her whole heart in prayer, you would want to squeeze her the way I get to every day and night, I'm so blessed! Here's to Wynter Jane Weiler!

The substance of things hoped for

Hello my dears! I was battling depression the past 3 days and that is why you haven't heard from me, because I don't want anything but upbeat, positive, uplifting, praise-filled words to fall on your lovely ears! So, I'm happy now because I have the victory which is......drum roll, please! --Faith! Yes, simple childlike faith. What a discovery and how much lighter I feel now that I've stopped trying to fight God in His plan for my life. (In relation to Christian being away all this time and the many delays he's encountered in his fundraising and trying to make it home to us.) So, yesterday I told Jesus that I don't want to be stubborn and questioning Him anymore. I made a pledge in front of a friend (Renae) that I will not utter one single word of doubt regarding our situation and I will keep an attitude of faith and humble trust, knowing and expecting that God will do a miracle. The minute I said those words I felt lighter and then lighter until I was happy again and free to make other people happy too! So cool. I'm a believer, hahah! So, I'll post some pix on this page so that my sermon can be accompanied by some scenery. I LOVE ALL OF YOU! Ciao!

Christmas Morning

Wynter Jane discovering her new toy blender.

The promised pictures

Goodie! It works! Now I can share my life with you again! So, Antigua was beautiful and the company was even better. We had a great time walking through the darling marketplace and buying trinkets and then we got to eat Pupusas (El Salvadorean originally but common food here too) and drink beer atop the hill overlooking the city, such a pretty view! Ange brought a guitar so we shared songs, laughed and took pictures of eachother, good times. I'll post more pix of Christmas, New Year's and more later. Ciao!!

Antigua

We had a wonderful day in Antigua. The 1st picture is of Renae, Angelina, Me & Sharie chilling out on the hill overlooking the city of Antigua (former capitol of Guatemala). Next pic is Renae & I in the town square. I'm posting more pix in a few minutes, just checking to see if this works. Love you!

Happy New Year!

I've been saying Happy New Year all night and now I'm missing the people I've shared old years with. :( New friends are wonderful but there's just something about people who know the real you and don't run, you know? Anyway, I am looking forward to a whole new set of everything this year and I know that's what I'll get because life has already changed so drastically. Yesterday I went to Antigua with some new friends and it was a wonderful day, I have pictures to prove it but this computer isn't letting me post pictures on blogger for some reason. I'm gonna try yet one more time and if it doesn't work, you know why. Happy new year, friends. Love you.